I dont like what it does to me

So far so good, no relapse but still feel like Im running on no sleep.  It's either the Librium or its my sleep debt catching up to me after Friday's episode.   If I had to pass judgement I would say it (Librium) does seem to be effective, but not nearly as effective as I'd obviously like.  I still get the anxiety, but then again I am on a relatively low dose (10mg).  To deal with the anxiety I have a mantra: "Ive stopped drinking, I dont like what it does to me".  Surprisingly something so simple actually seems to help.  Perhaps its the suggestion, or just the simple act of distracting my mind from the fantasy of drinking.  Whatever it is, Im glad it works because Id probably have spent yesterday trashed.