the rest of your life...

Yay, one whole day being sober. Baby steps right?

Although in all honesty I do have some motivation. Ive developed quite a serious case of hypochondria these last few days. Every little ache or pain is suddenly a symptom of acute renal failure or liver disease. Logically I know ol' Occam is probably up to his tricks again, but there's the other side that starts reading up online for all the signs and symptoms to watch for. Oh well, a little motivation never hurt anyone... The risk of dying is a pretty good motivator, or at the very least spending a large chunk of the next few years going for dialysis.

Day 0

Hi, Im Medraut and Im an alcoholic.  Ive been sober for....Hrmm, well I havent been sober for a while.  This blog is really for me to track my progress towards finding sobriety.  I decided early one morning while lying in bed that the best way for me to find my way back is probably to write about it. 

Alcoholism has been running in my family for generations, and I say "running" because I do subscribe to the theory that you never really do stop being an alcoholic.  I dont however believe it's a disease that can be cured.  In my opinion to call it a disease allows you to distance yourself from the problem and to shift blame onto something else.  I am who I am, and at the moment I am someone who drinks.  I hope tomorrow will be the first day I can say "Hi, Im Medraut and Im an alcoholic.  Ive been sober for one day."