Cancer of the mind

Why do you drink?  Thats an easy question to answer; because I can.  Why do you want to drink?  I dont know.  Most people can come home in the evening and are content watching television, studying, cooking, playing computer games or generally existing.  Me?  I cant do that.  I drink.  Some people say its because I want to be numb.  I can understand this default answer, who wouldnt want to be numb?  Im bored, Im repeating a pattern, Im addicted, Im lazy, Im sick.  I dont know, maybe its all of the above.  Maybe Im tired of life, or maybe I dont have anything worth living for.  Maybe its not as simple as that, I mean really:  "oh Im tired of life", what a cliche.  Maybe its the same driving motivation that sees me checking the door is locked every night, making sure I wash my hands, I urinate before bed, wake up, I buy myself a coffee, breakfast, go to the toilet,  sit down, check my mail, read the news, work my tickets,  go to the toilet, get coffee, have lunch, get coffee, work tickets, take calls, take tram home, make dinner, watch tv (or play minecraft :-)), shower, bed.  Rinse, repeat.

If this was your life, wouldnt you want to drink?  Hey, I'd be taking Xanax every day if it were over the counter, but I cant.  Atleast I can walk into spar and buy a sixpack though.